Setbacks

I was not able to do anything on the basement today. I woke up feeling terrible, and spent most of the day resting on the couch.

I have chronic illnesses. I started out just having PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder), but now I have a bunch of things, including thyroid cancer, fibromyalgia, inflamation of my spine due to a car accident, and a weakened immune system, made worse by radioactive iodine treatment, which I just had last June.

But of course that's not why I am sick. Today I came down with the flu my daughter has had all week. I wouldn't mind if I could take some medication, but because I lost my thyroid to cancer, most, if not all over the counter cold medications are out of the question. That means that when I come into contact with cold or flu germs, I take every precaution. Lots of hand washing, I stay away from public places, even and especially church, and if I feel like I'm getting sick, I try to sleep to give my body the time it needs to deal with it.

I feel hopeless, like I will never get the jobs around my house done. Like I will never be able to be "on top" of things, instead of "under" them.

DMC